I'm also seeing a therapist and she hasn't been able to help me much as far as finding ways to distract myself. I've tried everything that has been suggested including holding ice, doing something musical, or artsy. I just can't seem to get it out of my head until I do something to myself. Then the guilt sets in and I feel even worse. She told me to wait 15 minutes before I did anything and if the urge is still there, then be safe, but know that I can call her. I don't want to call her... or anyone for that matter. I want to stop, but at the same time, I don't know how to let it go. I was clean for a year and a few months, but after my relapse in october, the urges have gotten stronger and stronger while my body has gotten weaker and weaker from starving myself and the cuts don't help much either. I just don't know what to do anymore.