I am starting to notice I come off rude, selfish and emtionally numb a lot of the time. And I really don't aim to....I feel poorly every time I do but it seems like it has just become a natural thing for me to do...
what worse is I do this more around my mother then anyone else...and it makes me feel like ****.

How do I not notice I am being rude...how do I act so selfish and poorly around others and not get it until its literally pointed out to me. What can I do stop being this way.