I received a phone call today by a film producer who wants local residents to come together and make a documentary. She had seen the video I did right after the storm and requested my presence at their first meeting tonite. I haven't touched my camera since right after the storm and still have no inclination to. I couldn't make up my mind on whether or not to go. And ended up going. I was doing alright at the meeting, but very nervous and not feeling comfortable. About an hour into the meeting she asked everyone to stand in front of the camera and talk about one thing you lost, then what your hopes are. My mind started to flip and all I could think was everyone I lost not just one and hopes, what the hell is that. Then something happened to me. I suddenly started sweating bad, got dizzy and chills and felt like i was going to faint. My legs started to give and I heard that ringing noise in my ears. I reached for a chair and sat down. I was at the point of busting out crying, but somehow was able to tell her I couldn't speak for the camera. Once I regained myself, I thanked her and left. Is this part of depression or am I losing it. This was scary tonite. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't handle what use to be so simple to do. What is wrong with me!