This Friday is my last day of work - I've been laid off again - third time since 2007. Had an interview with a recruiter via Skype this morning; her comments about the prospective employer set off red flags and I'm terrified I will accept whatever job offer I can get out of desperation. Saw my T and cried the whole hour; she told me she wasn't going to allow me to pay her to join my pity party. I'm frustrated with her as she doesn't get that going back to school to learn a new skill is pointless when 50% of degreed people are underemployed in today's market! So I feel my options are very limited and I'm angry about being let go again and I'm tired, so tired, of a job defining my life.

I will never get how people "love life", I think it's painful and difficult and unrewarding and empty; mine is, anyway.

I hate myself.