I too know how hard it is.

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After spending a week trying to get someone to say they care about me I started feeling sui knowing that it wasn't going to come from my therapist, that she wasn't going to be able to meet my needs, that I will probably always have this huge hole in my heart because I didn't get the caring I was supposed to get. I have been reaching out more trying to get it from people in real life and really putting myself out there even though I have severe social anxiety. I still don't know how to feel this need.

It hurts I know and I am sorry you are going through this.