I mean I had sexual tension recently the only time I've talked to her, but she isn't a good girl. She can't admit she is loose. Well she did, but my best friend couldn't see it when he told her. I love him so much I couldn't have sex with her when I could of done better than him according what she has said. I can't do him wrong, my heart goes to him. I love him so much, if I was a woman and was sexually attractive to him. We be married, that's what he needs a woman like that sees what I see. I know he can be an asshole, but I cry now, because he don't need that. I went through enough, my heart aches, because I love my best friend since we were kids growing up. If he was around more, I'd tell him you don't need that hoe. I don't care if did **** me in your house or anywhere behind you. I didn't do it, I would of turned it down. That's beyond disrespectful and I get it when women aren't satisfied in a relationship with a man I get these stories all the time and not being cocky. Deep down, I know I could treat them right, but then again. In this scenario, the bros before hoes goes to a whole new level. I wish he could see this, I really want to cry. She is so into me, when he was dating her for a long time being strung along losing his virginity to her. God I wish, I wish he knew I want to tell him. I don't want drama between the two and him hating me, but damn. I love him too much he was with me through my abuse I will pay him back with knowledge and wisdom I've learned from it. I kinda wish right now even though he can be an asshole hasn't trusted women recently and they didn't see some sides of him like I do. I want him to know, if those girls saw what I saw even though I am a man and not have any sexual attraction to him even though he looks good for women. I couldn't let him go through this. I have some ****ing strength. If I was a woman completely and he was attracted to me and we grew up like we did. We be married. I can be completely honest. That was horrible what I heard from her mouth. I appreciate her honesty, but she isn't responsible neither is my friend with himself. I know relationship are what you put in you get back. I a so sad and mad how he's going through this and doesn't know how she felt bout me. I am open to a poly physical emotional relationship, but I got to be distant, because this **** she pulled on him. I know him, and it makes me think she is no good and is a hoe. Despite what happened, I know what a hoe looks like. This hurt me, because he has no idea I wish he knew how much I care for him as a friend. This feeling I have I want to find a woman for him that can do this. I truly wish, **** it kills me. Truly does, no man shouldn't be treated like that I will tell him how to be more attractive than just looks. He needs to know how to get in a woman's mind and heart without being a **** and show them what I see. I want the best for him and she isn't good. He's truly lucky to have me I want to cry, because I do feel like this. He made my childhood great when I went through hell. I will never do him wrong. I want him to get a woman hold her tight and be a man to himself and deal with everything. I got this he doesn't it makes him uncomfortable because of his insecurities and feelings. I truly truly am going to tell him now. How I can help, he's got confidence and good appeal to women. He by definition can get a playboy model and better like I know he can, but he's so stupid. I would help him, but I want to teach him to show love and be a man bout it. Be sensitive and tell him how to have sex right with a woman. It's weird when I said, that I won't watch him, but give him advice he needs a woman. This kills me and I know I gotta do this peace. Please help me figure out in my head what am I seeing. OMG I just want to cry hard now