If you're not sure, how about giving them to your current T for safe keeping till you decide? That way you can't use to put yourself down and still have the option to "save" them for later.
If, for some reason, you don't trust your T not to read them, you can put them in a safe- however, should stg happen to you, they'll be passed down to your relatives (which, for me, would be a deal breaker even though the possibility of that is close to zero)