Yup. I was told from an early age that I was 'fat. ugly, stupid', that I 'smelt.'
I was told 'No body will ever like you, you will never have any friends'.
I never remember being wanted, loved, hugged, cuddled or kissed. I remember no kindness.
I remember the sly smirk that would play on her lips when I was hurt.

Mother was ice cold. I was ignored, ridiculed.

Middle sister was a favourite, The Golden Child, the adored one who could do no wrong.
Problem is emotional abuse such as the kind my secretly mean N mother inflicted on me goes unseen, unrecognised.

I blame my anxiety, depression, social phobia and OCD on her. Because I have no doubt I was not born like this, she did this to me.
She, this emotional vampire, sucked all the joy out of life. The B##ch.

I would like a safe place to vent, somewhere I will not be invalidated, a place I will be understood.
Thankyou for your replies.