Hello Webgoji: I don't know any of the details of your situation. So I can't really suggest much. But my sense of your post is that, as you look around at your situation, you only see bad options. This is my situation. Are there changes I could make in my life? Sure if I don't mind destroying what remains of my wife's life. In that case, there's lots of options. But beyond that well I could try to get myself medicated up the point where I don't really care about anything... or I can just keep doing what I've always done... just suck it up & keep on keepin' on & hope that I pass away of natural causes before my sucking ability runs out for good! Like I said to one therapist I talked to: I know what my options are... I just don't like any of them. I hate to say so, but I think sometimes life just leaves us in a place such as this where there just aren't any good options. But then, perhaps there's another option out there you haven't considered yet. I do hope so.