I am really confused with asking my therapist for help. I called her on Friday because i'd had a bad night and speaking to her helped. But frankly my whole weekend has been quite tough and i struggled not to contact her again. I see her tomorrow so i've managed to get thru it without calling a 2nd time. But it was hard not to call.

I'm scared i become dependent on her help outside of session, that my tolerance for discomfort will be lowered and i'll be more tempted to seek her help or soothing. It's like, if i start letting her help now then i'll open the floodgates to needing her more often. And once that is opened it is very difficult (nearly impossible) for me to get back to a place of autonomy and independence. And if she decided somewhere along the line i need to contact her less, then this will trigger huge rejection and abandonment issues for me and it will just be a sh*tstorm. I'm trying to avoid all that happening, cos frankly, i've been there and got the T-shirt with another T.

I can't decide if i'm denying myself the help she has offered and needing help often will just be a phase and i shouldn't put myself thru the misery of coping alone or if i am quite rightly trying to stay in a place of emotional togetherness, learning to sit with my emotions and deal with them myself.

What is healthy reaching out and what it becoming dependent and needy?