Hi and welcome to PC!!! I hope you find it to be a helpful place. I am so sorry for everything that you are going through right now. I hope you know that makes you such a strong and amazing person for dealing with all of this. I am curious if you're seeing a therapist or counselor because if you aren't I thin that would be a great start. I know this is a little private but are you on any medications at the moment? Thanks let me know so I can answer your questions better.