I think I have c-ptsd(complex ptsd). It is like living in a hell. It is a severe c-ptsd and it is not letting go. The hard part is finding a therapist that is caring and not a yappy and an idiot. The last therapist which I used to pay over $200 per session flat out said I don't have ptsd. She said she agrees with my schizophrenia diagnosis which I don't agree with. I told her how about my hyper vigilance, dissociation, panic attacks, depression and getting bored all the time.. I didn't have this before the traumatic incident. And she said schizophrenia can be like that. WTF!!!!! It's been such a hard task to find a therapist and then I find one and she flat out rejects that I have ptsd when I have c-ptsd.

I am going to have to find another therapist but it is proving sooo difficult to find one that is caring and listens to you and not just passes judgements and is an idiot. On top of it a couple therapists rejected me and said my problems were too complex for their level of expertise and skills. It is like turning every corner and finding an obstacle.