This is just my own opinion. I'm on disability and I don't consider myself "ruined." I raise my daughter by myself. I go to therapy every week and work very hard at healing. I'm a good friend. I do grapple with not being able to "work." Mostly because of societal and familial views. But I also realize that I need to work through my stuff before I can be consistant at a job. I consider the "job" of raising my daughter to be the best that she can be, to be extremely important. And the more healthy I get, the more I can help others. I had a therapist explain to me that when I broke down and stopped running, I was getting better. I watch my sister living the way I used to. She runs around keeping herself so busy she doesn't have time to think or have any real connections with people. I was really productive at one point but I also wasn't really present in my life. I may not work, but I'm able to be available for my daughter, friends, family and myself. I had to accept my illnesses and take the time to heal.
Good luck in your pursuit. Annie