(((((((((((((Firebird)))))))))))

I am sorry that things don't seem to be working in your favour at the moment!!!

I understand the pressures of money or lack of it.... But remember money is a material thing.....

Do you see a therapist for the way you feel???
If you don't, it might be a good idea, or even a support group where you can talk to people who have been through or going through similar things to what you are!!

I can only talk to you about my own experience!!
I suffered very deep depression, but there came a point where I didn't want to live me life that way anymore!

It's been damn hard work, I used to be a person that would lock herself away on my bad days, never to leave my house, but deep down inside that wasn't who I am!!
My first goal was to replace the negative with positive!!
Instead of saying "I am worthless" - i replaced it with "I am worthy."

As I said it was hard & I couldn't do it alone!!

I hope that you can find someone to talk to about how you feel & that you start feeling brighter soon!!

((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

Flinty
PS - If you ever need to talk, don't be afraid to send me a PM!