Hi (((Ink))). I'm so sorry you feel ashamed. I'm really proud of you for sharing. I think it's really brave. It's hard for me to write or talk or even think about my over eating. So I understand how hard it can be. When I read what you write, my heart goes out to you. It doesn't make me view you in a negative way at all. Actually just the opposite, because you're working on getting better and you're sharing about it. I think that's awesome! I know it's a very hard illness to deal with. I hope you will try to be gentle with yourself as you go through the process of healing. Take very good care Ink. Annie