Hi i'm a newbie,
ok so i guess i'll just start with a little about me.
i was diagnosed bi-polar at 17. a year later my mom who was my best friend died and i spiraled into a really dark and lonely place. i was cutting and tried to die a few times. i started self-medicating and experimented with a bunch of drugs. when i was 23 i found out i was pregnant and have spend a lot of time and effort trying to get better. i've had a lot of trouble with relationships but i hate being alone. i'm trying to make a better life for my children and me and have been going to school trying to have a career not just a job. i work part-time and i push myself way to hard. i want to slow down but i don't want to fail. i'm overwhelmed and scared and i feel all alone. i'm soooo afriad that i'm going to screw up my kids. i'm hoping that this is a place where i can find some help and support.