But I did do one thing, I contacted a mental health provider for an appointment. Currently I am med and therapist free. I have not seen anyone. for 15 years My only resistance has been that I know they will suggest medication and I don't want to take it. So we will see where that goes.

On an upside the sun is out, I'm going to the gym and then go buy a bunch of healthy food.[/QUOTE]

Good for you.....work out...take a walk...relax and enjoy the sun today....eat good food and take care of your self right now....concentrate on you...take time for you right now....okay good to talk to someone else, they may give you a little insight on this too... like technigal said...meds are a personal choice, I stopped for 8 years and am on a small amount of meds just for the panic.....you must feel comfortable with what you choose...I agree...hope you continue to fight the good fight....stay strong...hugs for you