Verity,
Am glad you are going to continue talking to others....please know that we are there for you and support you every day...its good that you have support and as you feel stronger you can accept that others want you to be there....its true...so keep fighting and good things will start to happen...your outlook will change and you can be happy!!!! take time for yourself and you can learn to like yourself...and god forbid...love yourself too!!! hugs hun...take care now