since then ^^^ I had to start over on lamictal....im back up to 100mg now when I once was at 400mg. But I am dealing with depression...crying spells....being irritable and such. I have had super anxiety and close panic attacks and ended up self-harming last night.

I saw my T today and she's worried about me. I have been awake over 24 hrs. I simply couldn't sleep last night and I was super anxious too! She wants me to "consider" what to do if things don't start to get better with me. And she wants to talk to my Dr too.

Im scared. Shes referring to a crisis stabilization unit I went to in August. Im not suicidal. What does she mean I wonder and Im scared what my Dr will say/do!