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Originally Posted by Rapunzel
It isn't selfish or immature though. It is a normal part of therapy. Your T can help you to understand it better and feel better about it.
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I know I need to bring it up. It's obvious that it is troubling me. It's just...I always get reassurances from her that she isn't going anywhere. And yet I still can't manage to trust that. I keep falling back into the fear that she will eventually get tired of me and want to leave me. It just never ends. She is ridiculously patient and is certain to understand. I just hate that every little thing opens up a whole can of worms, and that it's a never-ending cycle of things bringing up feelings and reactions. It's exhausting.
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Originally Posted by PeeJay
I'm sorry! I think this is concern is valid and not childish at all.
You fear losing your T, and of course you do.
That would be a significant loss in your life because your T is important to you. And now T's outside life is disrupting your therapy.
I thought the whole point of the T's responsibility is to be steady and consistent, especially for people who have never had that.
The disruption is disturbing.
I hope you two can discuss it and that it works out well for you both!
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I think she told me as a "just in case" thing. So that if she did end up having to move my appointment time, I would have been forewarned. In that way, this is a type of consistency. I am being told about potential changes long before they happen and am not just being jerked around in regards to this type of thing. It would be a terrifying and overwhelming loss at the moment. I just need to bring it up and allow myself to be honest, even though it would mean being honest about how her leaving would affect me, in the highly unlikely event it would happen.