This sucked. The command has come down from on high, no more alcohol. At all.

Usually I'll have a beer or a mixed drink with dinner and maybe one or two while I'm watching TV with my kids.

Lately I've been down and hurting. So I've been drinking a little more to numb the pain. I know I shouldn't, but damn it, it works.

Luckily she switched up my meds to cheaper stuff (like I've been asking for months). I'm still out of work and $1000/mo just ain't happening.

Then we got into my getting fired.... Actually, that was first. Apparently I'm just supposed to know how to control my outbursts and alcohol from many days ago is to blame......

I need to learn how to meditate. I need to learn how to calm myself. The problem is, how can I meditate when my mind is flying around a million miles an hour......

Argh