growly, I was wondering, if all your wanting is for lcm to tell you " i love you", will those words make you feel better ( sorry my question mark does not work) lets say she calls you or in person she says growly, I love you too. Will you feel better and will that make you grow, and lessen the abandonment issues, or will you want more than that, I am wondering, or are you wanting the whole mom package deal.

If you just want her to say I love you back with the understanding she cant be a real mom but that she offers you nurturing and genuine care, thats fair and healthy.

I guess if you want the Mom package deal, I guess maybe thats why she does not tell you she loves you, either way, I wish you lots of luck with your struggles.