Growli, i think your mom is gay. I think my parents were/are gay too. Thats why they are so sensitive about it, and so rejecting of us - because they have these feelings, and if they saw any hint of them in us, they blamed themselves AND went into heavy denial and basically made a mess of things, and we're sitting there kinda oblivious going wtf was THAT all about?? My mother had a fit cuz i wanted to take auto repair in high school because apparently that PROVED something. Sofb. It takes the emotion out of it for me if i can figure out the effin crazy reasons they did stuff. Im still left with no connection to them, but at least it stops the ruminating and my trying to connect. Its like - oh, okay, so they think im a perve. Welllll good for them.