I know this is all getting a bit redundant...but I'm seeing T tomorrow morning and I have super important stuff to tell her, as per previous posts and all of your advice...and I am super, super nervous that I'm going to spend the whole session vacillating between guilt/apologies and disappointment/defensiveness.

I will TRY to be calm and just explain to her what upset me last week so we can explore where it's coming from and how past experiences are playing into this dynamic...but I am worried she won't respond to me in a way that feels safe to me, or that no matter how she responds it won't feel safe to me...or that I won't be able to keep it together.