Today was my 3rd visit to my new psychiatrist. I didn't realize psychiatrist do therapy when you see a therapist (this is my 3rd psychiatrist and my 2 previous ones just did med management). This psychiatrist was going into detailed questions about my history of sexual abuse (exactly what the abuser did to me, did I do anything to him etc). Why Im not dating now. I have a hard time standing up for myself and answered his questions even though I felt very uncomfortable. I cried as soon as I got to my car. Then 45 minutes later I had my appt with my T. (I cried in my car the entire time until my Ts appt). My T specializes in trauma. She was wonderful. Very supportive. We talked about ways to handle this situation in the future. I got home and cried some more (can't cry in front of my T). I have no appetite so I skipped dinner. I feel like crap. I don't see my T for 9 days now. She told me not to dwell on what happened and to learn from the experience. I just want to crawl into my bed and not get out. I wrote my T an email thanking her for being my T and asking her for an earlier session next week but I know she can't because she's traveling. Thanks for listening.