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Originally Posted by hankster
Growli, i think your mom is gay. I think my parents were/are gay too. Thats why they are so sensitive about it, and so rejecting of us - because they have these feelings, and if they saw any hint of them in us, they blamed themselves AND went into heavy denial and basically made a mess of things, and we're sitting there kinda oblivious going wtf was THAT all about?? My mother had a fit cuz i wanted to take auto repair in high school because apparently that PROVED something. Sofb. It takes the emotion out of it for me if i can figure out the effin crazy reasons they did stuff. Im still left with no connection to them, but at least it stops the ruminating and my trying to connect. Its like - oh, okay, so they think im a perve. Welllll good for them.
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Perhaps she is. I don't really care if she is or is not because that would only provide a reason for how she treated me, not an excuse. The only excuse for her treating me the way she did that would be acceptable in my eyes would have to be some super bizarre sci fi situation that I can't dream up on the spot or maybe if she had some super off the wall delusions like some sort of Hollywood sensationalized (demonized?) version of schizophrenia. But even in that case, it still wouldn't be okay by me. I would just be more sympathetic. However, my life is not a sci if film and my mother is completely lucid. Whether she is a lesbian or bi or not is her business and she never had a right to try and make it my problem.
I'm not saying that you are implying that it is excusable because she might have those feelings. I'm just ranting.