If I force myself to stay in the now I get a headache. If I let myself go and run among my delusional daydreams I lose myself. My car is stuck in the driveway again thanks to my car being small and 5 ish inches of snow. I can't make it in to work. could I lose my job? I don't truly think so. I love the snow it's so pretty. I think my higher power must have made it so for me. What other wonderful things have I been gifted? I feel I have the power the power to read others to know their inner most thoughts and feelings. I read them like a book laid down on the table in front of me. Deny your thoughts and feelings out loud but I see what is inside. I see the truth.
But I know that feeling however true it feels it's not. It's something my mind is making up for some reason unknown to me. I feel trapped by my feelings. How can I accept truth when I question it's truth? I make no sense I fear. I should go force myself back to sleep or find something to occupy myself until the sun rises and I can go shovel the snow. Thats the worst thing about early morning working. I can't actually do anything to get out of my driveway until the sun comes up because it's dark enough that it makes ner uncomfortable.

-Tig