It is all stacking up in my brain again. I have hurt myself once already I don't want too again. Please help me see the options, please give me some ideas how to cope with these things.

1. My dog is getting old, losing strength in his hind end. I am afraid I am going to have to put him down. How do I know when the right time is? I asked my husband to take him to the vet but he didn't now I have to on friday.

2. My mom is on the phone right now leaving a message asking about who is coming to visit her. I have told her a million times what is happening I can't deal with her right now.

3. I failed my son yet again. He wanted to join pee wee football. I asked my husband to take care of it but he didn't do anything about it so I tried but I froze and couldn't get it done. Now I don't know how to tell him he isn't going to be in the league. He wanted it so badly.

4. My store is moving to a new location. I was supposed to go to a meeting yesterday but forgot about it. I feel guilty as hell. I am not the only one to forget but I feel so bad anyway. I know it is stupid.

5. My husband hates his job. He comes home almost everyday and talks about how cruddy it is and how he is going to quit but how he can't because he is stuck in it and can't afford to quit but he is going to quit if he doesn't get next weekend off. I suggest to him that he start looking for a new job but he blows me off. He has up and quit a job before. I can't stand listening to it anymore but can't seem to say "shut up already!"

6. Past financial mistakes are swallowing up our future. I have no access to the money it would take for me to get the help I need. It makes me so mad because I begged him to stop spending so much money, to stop using the credit cards. I hate not being able to take care of myself because he decided to go bar hopping 10 years ago.

7. I want to crawl into a hole and die yet I struggle everyday to get out of bed and keep on keeping on. I am just tired of trying. I want to curl up into a ball and whimper but it is not allowed. I want to just not be here right now.

Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying