My dad keeps criticizing everything I do and he gets me mad about moving out. He and my sister constantly berate me over everything I do. I am 26 and she is 34. She likes to criticize me whenever I buy anything. I want a PS4 and I am saving up for one from doing favors for my dad and she told me, "Well if you had a job you could afford one yourself! Why do you have to stick around mom and dad so much?" but I have looked for jobs and the only one I got was working at Burger King for 2 months before I quit because I got burnt out too easily and it was too emotionally exhausting for me. I do not believe that I should still be working minimum wage after college.

All I want to do is study brain science. That's it. I want to get a Master's Degree in psychology in the neuroscience field. After that, maybe I could get a Ph.D. but that is unrealistic because I am not that caliber of a scientist. I can't see myself doing a regular office job at all. I don't want to do an office job like working with computers. I don't want to utilize my people skills and my computer skills. I know too much about psychology from the biological side. I can see patterns in behavior especially with children. I understand how dopamine and ADHD are related which is why stimulant medication is the only proven treatment method for lowering the symptoms of ADHD. I know all about this kind of stuff. I even know the 1999 ADHD study that showed how treatment with stimulant medication compares to treatment with other methods. But I guess I am not good enough to get into graduate school even though I got a 3.2 overall GPA and I scored high on my major field test. I also scored high on most of the practice GRE tests and I bought the GRE prep books and studied those. But since I do not have the social skills to get 3 letters of recommendation then NOPE! CAN'T GO! TOO BAD! NOT ME! And I weigh 350 lbs because my dad fed me whatever I wanted when I was little because the autism made me scream and cry when I was not fed what I wanted. Now that is making my life more difficult because I can't seem to lose the weight even after signing up for a gym for 8 months and having 16 personal training sessions. This is bringing me down hard and nobody's reply or advice is going to be good enough because I am too smart for anyone's help and I know what I want and I only want this. I only want to be skinny and work in psychology. That is all. No other sort of job is going to satisfy me.