I'm so sorry that you have to go through this Jojuli. My panic attacks started when I was 17 (25 now). It got to the point where I was having 5 per day. I couldn't leave the house, and almost didn't graduate high school because the attacks would hit me in school and I would just get up in the middle of class, get into my car, and drive home. I will never forget how they just hit me out of nowhere, and how unreal I would feel. I would feel like I was going to throw up any second, heart pounding, body going from hot to cold. So scary. I would wake up with them in the middle of the night, too. It finally got to the point in which I decided I was going to fight really, really hard, and kick the the panic attack's butt. I couldn't deal with it anymore. At that point, I was like 20 years old and I just decided that I was going to throw myself in to what I needed to do. So it was very common for me to be sitting in college, having a panic attack, and participating in class all at the same time. I figured that if I could distract myself enough, and if my mind could overpower the attack, I'd be okay. And it eventually worked. I just used the mentality that I was stronger than the attack. I barely have full blown panic attacks anymore. Unfortunately, I was diagnosed with bipolar, BPD, and GAD, but hey I can't be perfect, my craziness has to manifest itself somehow, LOL. So, I'm sorry if my "instant cure for panic attacks" has a side effect of 3 additional mental disorders, but if you're willing to take the risk, try it!! Hahaha, j/k.... but really.... the panic attacks are a product of the mind. The mind CAN overpower the attacks. Good luck. I hope you are feeling better.