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Old Feb 05, 2014, 04:26 PM
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Originally Posted by StarStrike View Post
Slept through breakfast. Woke up to my dog slobbering on my hand. Felt like I hadn't slept. Grabbed a bottle of cola out of the fridge to go with my lunch. I spent twenty minutes grappling with the bottle before noticing the blister on my finger. Ate lunch without anything to drink. Went to college in the afternoon. My worst nightmare of a maths lesson. Measurements. I looked at the measuring tape and the numbers jumped out at me. I couldn't understand it, no matter how hard I looked at it. I had so much help in that lesson... If you gave me a tape measure now and asked me to measure the height of a chair, I wouldn't be able to do it. I came home to bills warnings despite the fact that they've already been paid. Popped the blister to re-leave the pressure on my finger. Got really tempted to hurt myself more severely than I normally would so I took the dog out and just kept on walking. I ended up on the side of the motorway when it started raining heavily. So I headed home. I got soaked to the skin. I still want to hurt myself.
StarStrike, I hope you didn't/don't hurt yourself. I understand the feeling, I am feeling very much the same way right now. But it's easier for me to ask you not to hurt yourself than to convince myself that I shouldn't. I know, it doesn't make sense. Why should anyone listen to me? It is just because I can see the value in others, but not in myself.

Anyway, I don't want you to hurt yourself, because you have been a friend to me and you deserve better. Treat yourself to a nice cup of tea to warm up from the rain. Maybe try reading a good book. I love reading when I can, right now, I can't focus enough to. Anyway, do something nice for yourself and try to have a better day.
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Bark, StarStrike, winter4me
Thanks for this!
StarStrike