Hmmm yeah I see. I'm going to assume that moving to a big city isn't much of an option. I live in a larger city and have found that alternative culture is easier to find around here. People also tend to be more "tolerant", though I prefer the word accepting. It depends on the city of course, but just in general I think that's what you might find. It sounds like there isn't much where you're at, and that would make things much much more difficult for you. I'm sorry I wish I could give you some good advice or something at least You said you've asked in many different places without much luck. I wouldn't know either how or where to search either I'm afraid in the search engine.