Dear T, I'm tired and cold and scared of working on my feelings on Friday. I'm afraid if I start crying (which I never have in front of you) I won't be able to stop. And I don't like feeling out of control - you should know that by now. I'm putting a lot of trust in you, buddy, you better come through for me. You let me down in this "grieving process" thing, I may not be able to come back. Are you listening???? I'm willing to work hard and give it my best, but let's not forget who the one really in charge is, OK??!!

Me