Hi WM. So sorry you are hurting. It could be that you are trying to make big steps instead of small ones. Right from the start my T. encouraged me to make baby steps. How glad I was! I think big steps would have actually pushed me backward. Is it possible you are not a good match for your therapist?
And just wondering.....do you have any family that you feel relaxed with, like children, uncle, brother? Who makes you feel like you can be yourself with no pressure?
When we feel pressured (even from ourself) it can be very over whelming. E hugs to you.