When emptiness comes it comes in 2 ways, empty head and empty feelings. Had moments when I cried and wish I wasn't alive, this isn't normal on me but I'm finding my life much more useless. Some hours ago I was almost believing I was an allien. I'm so diferent from anybody. People are here because they want to talk and they care about the others, I don't care about any of those things. I don't even understand why I don't make friends.
I think I am so diferent also because I have strange diseases (small ones even so) that no one has, that doctors can't find an explanation to, or diseases that meds don't work. It seems like. Anything work on me, even the retinoid I have for my acne...bah. and on the top of it I'm realizing that I'm more and more dumb. And yes antidepressants don't work on me either.
I don't have friends here too or really cared about someone here too. I'm just. Weird.