Lord knows I'm trying not to give up.

I was a teetotaler for the year I was on probation (look into my very first post, it's a long story) and had no problem with it. I honestly do not believe I'm an alcoholic. I've always considered an alcoholic who can't have one of two drinks and then wrap up for the night. Unless I'm down, I rarely have more than one or two drinks and hardly ever get drunk.

The doc says no more alcohol, so no more alcohol. I'll give it six months and reassess.

I know my ex is a total shithead. I know that at this moment I'm the better parent. I just feel so damned lost sometimes