AAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHH.....I need to vent!

My relationship is a nightmare, full of lies, distrust, distance and confusion. I feel so lost I am physically sick lately, we do nothing but fight and I want it over but he will not go.
I have tried several times to give him the opportunity to go his own way but he does not take them.
It always seems to be me that has to end relationships and I am tired of the fall out and being the bad guy, he was the one who drove this into a ditch with all his secrecy, ******** and lies so why would he choose to saty I just don't get it.

Phew rant over.....thanks x