sounds like its def not the right med for you and you know that's perfectly ok, how many of u have all said we had to take XYZ before we found the right combo. Its better to recognise quickly what isnt working and make the switch than to struggle on and let it affect your work and daily life.
Most importantly at the end of the day this is your life, you have to do whats right for you and you alone. I hope you get there soon x