I have been through many therapists, psychiatrists, doctors and counselors but nobody seems to be able to help, as well as I've been on several anti-depressants even anti-psychotics and nothing seems to help. The ones I've tried either make me feel sick or don't do anything at all. Maybe a slight difference or boost of energy but that's about it. I actually have a medical marijuana prescription that I do get, and it actually does help at times but unfortunately as with all drugs, even prescription it eventually wears off and I feel no different.

No, I'm not going to overdose. I have od'd and nearly died(suicide attempt) in the past..sometimes I wonder if I should do it again, but any time I've ever come close I remember what it was like and decide not to go there. I still haven't gone back to work yet.. I'm really afraid for some reason and I'm not sure why. Like I don't even care if they fire me on spot but it's just actually bringing myself to go back and face everyone and what I'm gunna have to say when they all drill me with questions.. sigh.