Thanks to all of you for answering me. I was a mess last night. Literally got myself sick worrying about it later on. I had gone to my regular doctor earlier in the month and she said I have depression and post trauma. She put me on citrolpram and wants me to go speak to a therapist. I haven't gotten up enough nerve yet to go speak to anyone. I keep making up excuses why not to go. I wouldn't know what to say cause my mind is so jumbled up and I can't make any sense of it most of the time. I go back to see my doctor on the 6th and will let her know what happened to me last night. I've had times where I've gone through something similar, but not as bad as I was last night. I haven't seen yet where this medicine is helping me to feel better. I hope it starts soon.

If ya'll could only hear and see what is going on outside of my trailer right now. Loud, loud noises from a crane lifting the debris from the gutted house across the street into a truck. I can't stand the noise, but I'd rather that for a little bit than that crap sitting outside any longer. It's got my trailer shaking bad too. When their done I'm gonna have to go out there and sweep the street. Oh, fun. They never clean it up and leave nails and glass all over.

I thank ya'll for being so kind to me. I don't have anyplace else to turn to right now. My family and friends are the same as me and I don't want to burden them with more.

chalmette