Hi,
I think we are talking about no desire within the context of depression. Sometimes, you do not want to exist. And that status can be almost invariable for months. I am disabled because of a car accident I had when I was a teen. Around my twenties I had a series of surgeries. One of the consequences was an infection that would not go away. I had to had several additional surgeries to clean the infection that did not work. I was sent home with antibiotics and at that point I just felt I wanted to die. I could not walk anymore and on top of that, my last five years had been spent in the hospital, dealing with various health issues caused by the accident. I saw my future would be ugly. I have no desire, no motivation for living. I was trying to study but the illnesses would not allow me studying. I stop eating. I remained in bed waiting for death. It is a very profound sentiment. You cannot snap your fingers and say:"I will play ukelele". Believe me.
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ClaraHope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel
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