hi alex, all I can give are some ((((hugs)))). Hope you are doing better.

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does this mean i'm moving into stage two? i guess it does.

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alex, what is stage 2? Is this the 3 stages of therapy? I think I read about that once. How do you know when you are in stage 2? (I wonder if I have entered stage 2?)

mouse, echoes--the yearning for the T. So powerful. So scary. I tried to push it out of the way for the longest time. I was in denial I had the yearning. But it lurked there. Lately I am doing better with it. I think of T a lot, like he is there with me, and just the thought of him brings comfort. Sometimes I think "how would he react?" when I experience something. Or I hear his voice. I dream about him sometimes but last night I had a different sort of dream with him in it. It was a dream about my family members and T was in it, but was not a player, as in other dreams I've had, where he was a central figure. He was sitting off to the side, not looking at us or interacting, but he was there. I didn't look at him either, but I knew he was there, and I remember being surprised in the dream that he was there. Is that strange? It's like he was a presence there, and a comforting one, but not part of the action, which was mine.