LOL...that's just since 1994 when I was 41 at the point I lost my engineering career.....& at the time I knew I had a bad marriage just didn't realize HOW BAD & how much it was also effecting my mental health.....I gave up on life at that point.

I am so much more ok.....but will never be able to go back to an engineering career....especially 20 years later....but other things come up that keep me needing to work on staying stable....& since leaving my H 6 years ago, that has been one of the best things I have done for myself....along with the DBT therapy I am now working on for the last 3 years.....I find there are constantly new really bad things that keep hitting my life.....

Part of the OK that I have is not just therapy.....it's my RELATIONSHIP with God that has also grown & that is making a huge difference along with the other supporting areas in my life....& for the first time in my life & have friends & a support network that is so overwhelmingly amazing......feeling that I have people who care about me & call when I'm not feeling ok....has been an amazing feeling also.