Hmmmmm does your breakdown have anything to do with the fact that you realize there was no intimacy in your relationship at that time or was there something else big that happened in your life to cause the breakdown (or maybe everything put together?).

I agree, there can be no relationship without intimacy....that doesn't HAVE to be sex....but without any touching or closeness......which is what is part of the growth of a relationship.....it won't ever exist & the feeling of love will always be one sided.....& in reality one sided love isn't love....it's wishful thinking.

I lived 13 years under the same roof with my H until I could finally get out & I lived in the other side of the house even though we did talk at times....but fights were still more than I wanted to deal with & my anger grew to the point all I could see was red (that saying is a true fact). There is no point (except for being financially trapped) in a place where you should stay when you know it's not a working relationship.....it only makes everyone miserable & resentful on a continual down slope slide.

Can you find someone else to stay with until your SSDI gets approved? That would be your best solution (one reason not to jump into living together without knowing each other really well in the first place)....when one does things out of necessity rather than wisdom.....it usually turns out BAD.