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Originally Posted by winter4me
You haven't been fired yet. Is there a chance you could ask to sit down with your boss, acknowledge this is your fault, and ask for some help? If you have a t., you could present the situations and practice appropriate ways of answering/dealing with the situation. You do not sound lazy, stupid, or at all inconsiderate. You sound anxious and uncertain, and willing to learn. Those are positive qualities. Is there a less-noticeable behavior you could try replacing playing with your hair? A worry stone in your pocket? Taking slow deep breaths? You could even acknowledge the nervous habit and request someone you are comfortable with to give you a non-verbal cue when you are doing this.
What is the job?
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Thank you, everyone.
I am searching for another job, but not quitting, though the only reason is I don't want to disappoint my parents any more than necessary. I'm also going to make sure I wear my hair tied back so I won't play with it.
I work in a library. It's part time. I love books, and part of the problem is I spend too much time sneaking peeks in books while I'm working.
The reason I want to quit is that I feel especially sensitive to criticism lately. I've been working at this library for the past eight years. About two years ago I had a breakdown and was hospitalized and my boss was nice enough to hold my job for me. When I came back, I was still a mess; I was crying during work and behaving like a horrible child. I have not been a good, conscientious employee by any means, and the only reason I've lasted this long is because my boss hates the idea of firing someone.
I want to leave because I'm afraid my reputation is too damning for me to ever get over. Every time something goes wrong, I fall apart, and I feel like a complete failure. I dread going there because I know I'll screw up again and hear more criticism. All I want to do is retreat to my apartment and not have any obligations at all so that nobody can see me fail. But realistically, the only thing I can do is find another job so I can leave and then maybe my coworkers will stop hating me.