Milkshook, I'm sorry that you're in such a tough situation. I can relate to your parents not acting fast enough or taking you seriously- it's a terrible thing that happens to minors. I want to say that you are still doing a fantastic job, given your conditions and I'm proud of how far you've come. Self-help might be your only option right now (as Rohag suggested) and talking-talking to people who do care and sympathize. But I hope you never give up the strength to want to get professional help- it is important to do. I've seen all this before, in my friends, in myself- it's unfortunate that it is happening to you but I'm sure many people here understand and are willing to give you advice on coping strategies, dealing with unsympathetic ears and other issues. As for the pills, my cousin used to smash hers up in mashed potatoes or applesauce. I really wish I could offer you more, you have all my love and support, dear.