It's a hard place to be at, but you have to realize that this isn't you. You don't chose to be this way and you're doing what you can to get better. You've got the right to be sad or agitated or however you feel, just because your emotions sway with your disorder, doesn't mean you don't really feel them. You have a right to them, and it's good you have the time to work on yourself, but you also need to be in a relationship where s/he understands your condition enough to stand by you. Take care.