I am currently under a ridiculous amount of stress, which is causing me a lot of problems. Unfortunately, I stopped taking my medications after an accidental overdose, and just never got back into the routine. My doctor hasn’t really commented on it, (I see a GP, since there is a shortage of adolescent psychiatrists in this area).

I’ve started seeing bugs on my eyes. I am completely convinced it’s something to do with biology and people tell me this is weird. I’m paranoid everyone is talking about me, or plotting something (get me into the hospital, or to kick me out of school). I had an anxiety attack today because my logic was telling me nobody was trying to hurt me but I felt like everyone wanted something or was going to do something.

The stress is just a lot to handle. I am dealing with a stomach ulcer (was in the hospital overnight last Friday because it started to bleed and I was puking blood) and every time I experience any form of symptom I get distressed and my ulcer flares (so basically, mental and physical pain is through the roof almost constantly).

School is impossibly hard right now. I am taking a full course load for the first time in 3 years and the combination of this with the aforementioned is making me feel anxious and terrified ALL the time.

I know I need to relax, but it’s impossible. I am so high strung and moody right now. I have no idea what to do.