Dear T -
I'm trying to manage the guilty and hurt feelings without doing something to punish myself. I want to email you, but we just spoke today, and I'm honestly embarrassed about the way I'm feeling and just don't want to tell you yet. I'll tell you when I see you again. I don't like phone sessions. Next time meeting at your office is not possible, I'm just going to reschedule. I'm hurt that you got my scheduling mixed up, and feel guilty that you were willing to squeeze me in at 8 am on that day. I know you don't normally see clients before 9 am. I want to call or text or email you and just tell you to cancel the 8 am appointment. I'm not important enough to go in early for. I'll manage that day fine...I always have before. I don't deserve "extras." I'm going to try to hold on to the thought that you wouldn't have offered if you weren't willing, and try not to let the guilt overwhelm me.

Today has just sucked.