Growing up I always held the belief that adults never have it as bad as kids do, which is a fairly understandable view point for little kids to have. I'm a bit older and understand now that there's other people in the world that have problems, but I still prioritize children first. It's disgusting how unwilling people are to give children the help they need. I could on for hours and hours on that, but after that novel I posted last night I don't think I should (maybe some other time).

I suppose self help would be my only option at this point, would anyone have any suggestions on that? I personally only ever found people telling me "just keep calm, take a deep breathe, and stop crying" to be a large nuisance that only resulted in more anger, frustration, sadness, and head aches. Counting to ten doesn't work; I just count to 500 real quick and get angrier the longer I sit still. I'm open to new ideas, but I must warn you of my terrible pessimism. A lot of things I read often sound like useless fluff to me. Maybe there is something else out there that could help, but I couldn't find it. If anyone has and self-help recommendations for an angry, pessimistic, depressed little 17 year old girl, I would appreciate it

And to touch on the topic of dealing with pills-- each different pill is a new problem. If you can cut or chew the pill, it usually isn't a horribly big problem. My issue is with the pills that you're told that can't be dissolved in the mouth or cut (like the tablets with coating). Now, I know of people with physical issues that stop them from taking pills, but I think my barriers may all be psychological. I have no idea how to go about getting around this. It's not something I would do on my own, and not something I even need to do if I'm not currently on medication. But my expertise is in Depression, ADD, and Anxiety; I have no idea how to tackle phobias, especially these that damage one's life. I'm completely lost on the path necessary to find help overcoming phobias